Another day in the trenches
Today is my birthday. I am 75 years old. When you become older, birthday's are not as important as when you are young.
It has not been an easy 12 days since I started the high does chemotherapy. The four days have been pretty rough. The chemotherapy cytoxan has been particularily rough on my stomach. As upsetting as it sounds, for the last four days I have been dealing with constant diarrhea. It's not fun.
I have found that the will to live is greater than the will not to live. In all of my years of living with this disease, I very rarely gave up hope. I believe that this is one of the reasons I am still alive. A few days ago, I felt so sick that I thought I may not make it, ultimately the will to live suppressed any negative thoughts I had. The will to live would never leave my mind.
I am so happy that I am able to share my feelings with my dearest family and friends. I have especially enjoyed reading and hearing about your comments and well wishes. I look forward to spending a lot of time updating my blog and speaking with each of you.
maurice.
good luck, dad.
It has not been an easy 12 days since I started the high does chemotherapy. The four days have been pretty rough. The chemotherapy cytoxan has been particularily rough on my stomach. As upsetting as it sounds, for the last four days I have been dealing with constant diarrhea. It's not fun.
I have found that the will to live is greater than the will not to live. In all of my years of living with this disease, I very rarely gave up hope. I believe that this is one of the reasons I am still alive. A few days ago, I felt so sick that I thought I may not make it, ultimately the will to live suppressed any negative thoughts I had. The will to live would never leave my mind.
I am so happy that I am able to share my feelings with my dearest family and friends. I have especially enjoyed reading and hearing about your comments and well wishes. I look forward to spending a lot of time updating my blog and speaking with each of you.
maurice.
good luck, dad.
posted by alanlevy at 3:26 PM
6 Comments:
Happy Birthday. Keep up the fight and and never give up. Here is a favorite quote of mine from Winston Churchill
"Never give in--never, never, never, never, in nothing great or small, large or petty, never give in except to convictions of honour and good sense. Never yield to force; never yield to the apparently overwhelming might of the enemy.
Sir Winston Churchill, Speech, 1941, Harrow School
Love Andrew, Robin, Nicole and Carly
Dear Unclie Maurice,
The blog sounds amazing. I just got a chance to read it with tears in my eyes. I tried calling you a couple of times yesterday --happy birthday and many more...
I know the last couple of days/weeks have been very difficult and your spirits have been a little low but even you are entitled to have an off day or two (most of us would have many more). I know your tremendous spirit will bounce back as you get stronger. As always, you've been an angel of optimisim and a pillar of strength (for us all). You are an incredible man in every way -emotionally, spiritually and physically- and while you never deserved this disease, your
will to live and ability to attain inner strength and courage to face
this unforgiving NHL is a lesson to all of us. I know that you are going to get through this and any hard times ahead and come out not only fighting but with a smile on your face and love in your heart. A true hero in my eyes. I am
proud to say that you are my Uncle.
Looking forward to seeing you and everyone soon. Happy birthday! Love to all, Shelly
Dear Maurice,
We know this has been a rough week for you and we are hoping you will be feeling better soon. Your positive attitude has been an inspiration to us all. Don't give that up! We think about you everyday and we know that you will soon begin to feel stronger. We love you lots and will see you soon!
Love, Jane, Neil, Rachel and Hanna xoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxooxoxooxoox
Dear Uncle Maurice,
It has been wonderful to read your personal blog. Happpy Birthday and many more!
You are truly the most bravest man we know. We admire all your courage, strength, and positive outlook through all your difficult times. Warm thoughts are with you always.
Can't wait to hear more from you and hoping to see you real soon.
Take care and feel good!
Love always,
Meryl, Howard, Danny and Ethan
Dear Uncle Maurice,
We are very happy to read your blog and want to wish you a Happy Birthday and many more! You are truly an inspiration to all of us. Your continued courage and strength is remarkable. You are in our thoughts everyday. We look forward to hearing more from you and hopefully see you soon.
All our Love,
Brenda,Peter,Ben,Matthew,& Emily
Hi Maurice, I am searching for the words to motivate you to keep up the good fight for life that you know you have inside of you. you have come too damn far to stop now. You know life is better than the alternative and you have a lot of life left in you. The pain, discomfort and all you are experiencing ( only you know )will disappear in time as your numbers are climbing nicely.Just a matter of a short time. Hang tough and you will be up and about real soon. We all love you and admire your courageous and remarkable spirit. they will have to shoot you with a canon.Love Randy and Shelly
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